Like A (Broken) Record

“Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming.
Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.
What do we do? We swim, swim.”
Dory – Finding Nemo 

It's really strange the way the world works. A year ago, the thought of spending a few hours alone with the LO gave me tremendous and sometimes debilitating anxiety, and today... right now... all I want to do is drop all of my responsibilities and hang out with her; climb into bed and snuggle under the covers for a long nap!

Mainly because everything ELSE is giving me tremendous anxiety…

Rory The Cat

Being back at work full time, and extremely busy, has left me with little to no time to bla bla bla on the blog these days it seems. I am promising myself that I will not let this place run down or become a monthly update spot but, like most thing, it will take time to figure out. In the meantime, this will be another general update post.

First a quick update on health related issues.

Merry Christmas

Good morning everyone!

May the holiday season sparkle and shine, and may all of your wishes and dreams come true!
During the rush of the holidays, don't forget to take time to enjoy the little things that really matter!

Elf On The Shelf

Facebook “memories” made me laugh today!

This morning, it reminded me of an old post stating how much I disliked the whole “Elf on the Shelf” phenomenon and how I’m pretty sure the parents just bought the creepy little elves for themselves! Flash forward to last weekend and, I admit it, I’ve taken “Elf on the Shelf” to a whole other level!

We don’t have the creepy little guy; no, no, no… we have a CUSTOM elf on the shelf! And not just one, but two!!!

First Birthday!

Last night was our first snowfall of the season. Ironically, I can say without a doubt that last year the first snowfall occurred on the evening of the 21st. I remember this because I was awake half the night with a difficult labor and I could see the snow falling onto the Oratory roof across from the hospital.

As a Game of Thrones fan, we joked that "Winter is coming..." and, after our LO was born, "Winter is here..." but most of you wouldn't get the reference.

Back To Work!

This is my first day back to work after maternity leave! Thankfully, I made the right decision to ease back into my new life gradually... lots of gossip this morning, and lots of changes that will likely not all be good. But, we will see what happens comes of it all in time.

Belated June Updates

I’d like to say that I have been too busy to post, but that really hasn’t been the case. I just haven’t taken the time to sit down and write to be honest. I’ve caught up on some tv shows, started reading a book, baking, and house cleaning for the most part. Fun, huh?

Anyhow, here are some June updates…

Sessions With Billie

"A semicolon is used when an author could’ve ended a sentence but chose not to.
You are the author and the sentence is your life."
Project Semicolon 

I had another session with Billie last week and it went really well. I cannot explain it, but sitting down to talk with her is just so comforting! I have friends who I have known for half my life that I don’t feel this comfortable talking to! She really seems to listen to what I have to say, understands what I really need, and gives excellent support and advice. I could talk to her for hours!

Sessions With Billie

I am still waiting to see the psychiatrist that my GP has referred me to but, in the meantime, I had a second session with my therapist (aka Billie). And, I am happy to report that I still really like her! I have seen other therapists in the past that just didn’t fit well right from the get-go, but she has been wonderful from the start which makes things so much easier.

It has been like sitting down with an old friend for the most part... which is nice.

365 Days

“A million miles later
We walked through the valley of the darkest night
We made it through the fire
We're scarred and we're bruised, but our hearts will guide us
Together, I know our love's gonna last forever
We're gonna be alright… tonight” 

 Madonna – Hold Tight Lyrics

A year ago we secretly took what we now know to have been the last step in our journey of TTC with PCOS. Yes, today marks one year since we did our fourth and final FET resulting in our little girl! And can you believe she is almost 4 months old already?!

Today also marks 15 years with my current employer and a little later this week will be 14 years with DH! It’s a big week!

Newborn Photoshoot

For years I have watched friends post pictures of their newborns taken by a local, popular, family photographer. I have always said that I would contact her the minute I became pregnant amd that is exactly what I did!

We did the photoshoot when baby girl was only 8 days old and you can see a glimpse into our shoot on the photographers blog, Tanya Zaleski Photocreations.

I am really looking forward to our follow up session this summer including our nieces, brother and sister-in-law!

Hello 2016!

“Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365-page book. Write a good one."

Brad Paisley 

She's Here!

Our little princess made her way into the world this past Sunday, November 22nd! We are home now and I will write more, including her birth story, once we are settled in!

She Is Fierce!

“And though she be but little, she is fierce!” 

William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream 

The above quote is currently hanging front and center in our little girls’ room. A couple of people have commented that it was a very nice quote, but how could I already know her personality? Well, to put it simply… I don’t. But, if her journey into this world says anything about her then I have a pretty good idea already!

30 Days!

Even though we still don't have a replacement lined up for my job... it is an awesome feeling to open your desktop calendar and finally see your last day of work in sight! 30 days!!!

Prenatal Class Part II (and more…)

Prenatal classes are officially over now! We learned a lot more than I thought we would so I would still highly recommend these classes for anyone on the fence like I was. In fact, I am considering them as a baby shower gift for a couple of people right now!

Life Begins At 36

Yesterday DH and I quietly celebrated my 36th birthday together… the last one with “just the two of us” and that couldn’t make me happier!

As we sat in The Keg eating dinner, I couldn’t help but think about how far we have come and how much things have changed since last year!

99...

Bottles of beer on the… nope;
Red balloons… that’s not it;
Problems but a b*… no, no no!

Days till our official due date! We are in the double digits now everybody!

20 Weeks! Halfway There!

It feels like it was just yesterday that I POAS and found out we were pregnant, and now we are halfway there with 20 weeks or so left to go! Still don’t know if I will be induced early due to GD or if they will let things occur naturally so we can’t really be sure (can you ever?). So far though, the GD has been extremely well managed and I am very proud of myself for that!

Our New Journey: Part I (March 2015)

Back in December I wrote that Dr. D had ordered a bunch of blood tests along with the endometrial biopsy before we could schedule our next FET. Well, we actually did schedule the next FET at the same time; it just wasn’t confirmed until all those test results came back clean.

And so, we secretly began our second FET from this IVF cycle in March 2015… and I managed to keep my mouth shut about it too!