All I Want For Christmas, I Have...

The holidays have been difficult for me for many years; they just aren't what they used to be when I was growing up. Being on the adult side of the holidays, they seem to be all about planning and obligations rather than magic and wonder... but this year is different.

I am still having mild anxiety about things in general, but the Holidays aren't really getting to me as much. And I think I know why...

Intentions vs Reality

A while back I wrote a sort of review on Mayim Bialik’s book “Beyond the Sling” and listed my parenting intentions once becoming a mom. While those intentions are still at the forefront of my thoughts, reality also set in and things are not going exactly as planned; and that’s ok!

So what has changed?

Truth About Baby Blues

No matter how hard I may have tried to have this baby, the baby blues still hit me pretty hard in the beginning. Thankfully not for long and DH was pretty awesome about it, but it just goes to show that no one gets a free pass when it comes to depression.

I was ashamed to admit it at first, but once I opened up to a couple of friends about it and had their support I felt a ton better!

From Sushi To Eggs Benedict

Throughout pregnancy there’s a variety of foods you shouldn’t eat, and in my case a bunch I couldn’t have due to GD. I am still being careful with my sugars until I redo the diabetic testing, but those other foods I couldn’t have? I am hitting them one by one and enjoying every minute of them!

Honestly, I had NO pregnancy cravings, but I am having a ton of post-partum cravings now!

Breastfeeding Is A Bitch!

I just received a card from my BFF that reminded me that being a mom is the toughest job you could ever have. And, while I have only been doing it for a couple of weeks, I can see why.

And that reason, at the moment, is breastfeeding!

It has been the most difficult part of the last couple of weeks, with many highs and lows. I am trying my best and taking every bit of advice I have been given, but I also need to maintain my sanity and figure out my Plan B (or I think we are at Plan C now) in case this just doesn’t work out. Some days I think I spill more tears onto the baby than milk into her at this point!

48hrs Of Postpartum Care

So after 19 hours of labor, 1 hour in surgery and a couple of hours in recovery we were finally taken to our new room in postpartum care; wheeled there on a gurney, still heavily drugged with baby strapped to my chest. Honestly, it wasn't until we left the hospital a couple of days later when I figured out where they had brought us because I was so out of it... and it was just down the hall!

Our Birth Story

First sign I am a new mom? I wanted to get this out days ago but was only able to finish it up now!

Baby girl is now 9 days old and we are all doing well, for the most part. Details to come once I get around to writing the postpartum stuff… give me a week, or so!