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Monday, August 4, 2014

Unfortunately Fortunate

Never let the things you want
make you forget the things you have.

Looking back over the last couple of months, we have done extremely well for ourselves. I finally bought a new (used) car and DH decided to get rid of his old Mazda in favor of a new (used) car that he has always wanted as well as a new (used again) motorcycle. We recently got a new sofa and a new bed, and we have finally had some work done around the house that was long overdue as well! And, the best part is that we are not suffering financially from any of this. In fact, most of it was done without financing which is generally how we live our lives; if we don’t have the cash for it, it doesn’t happen unless it is critical. Sure, the extra spending will come to a halt for a while and we won’t be going away for another six months or so in order to recover some savings but is that so bad? Not really considering I have seen the debt some people get themselves into first hand!

And yet, while extremely fortunate on one hand the other has been extremely unfortunate. The whole battle TTC; the letdowns, the frustration, the desperation, the heartbreak… no amount of money can change any of that. Nothing can guarantee our success. Every penny spent is like gambling, with no extended warranty or lifetime guarantee included. Everything is a crapshoot. And, for the time being, a game that I can’t even play because of reasons beyond our control.

And you know what? I would get rid of everything we could without jeopardizing a decent lifestyle in order to have our family. Everything unnecessary like the second car, the motorcycle, the second vacation each year… and yes, even our home. I would gladly downsize and get rid of things like the pool in a heartbeat if I knew that it would help!

But it won’t help, will it? Nothing material can replace what I want most, but at least what I want most isn’t standing in the way of what we have either. I guess fortune comes in many different ways, and while we are extremely fortunate and I am very proud of that… it doesn’t always “fix” everything. Money certainly cannot buy love, or a family, no matter how much I wish it could.